I am about to make the most obvious statement in the history of motherhood.
Are you ready?
Here it is….
Having kids is STINKING hard.
I mean there are times where it is ‘rip my heart out and stomp on it’ hard.
There are times when it overwhelms me to the point that I scream at God, (or one of my friends) “I want to get off of this mommy train!!” … and I mean it for about 2 ½ seconds.
I could no more leave those kids than I could walk into my kitchen and saw my arm off with a butter knife. But there are moments when I just can’t take it anymore.
It’s not my kids. They are great kids! I love them like only a mother can love. And THAT is the problem. Love hurts.
I physically hurt when they hurt. It crushes my heart when they are discouraged, or left out, or ridiculed, or any moment that they feel they are ‘not enough’.
It slays me.
And sometimes it becomes too much.
But what hurts me more than anything this world can throw at them, is the thought that they have the absolute free will to choose to follow Jesus and have life…. or to choose to not follow him and spend eternity apart from me in utter darkness and torment.
I. Cannot. Handle. That. Thought.
I trust my God. I trust that he is able to save them. To reach them. To touch them to their core with HIS love that changes hearts.
My greatest desire is not that they are successful in school or work or even in their relationships. My GREATEST desire for my kids is that they would live their life boldly unashamedly radically for Jesus. They would be uncompromising in their faith, and they would live in such a way as to please God.
So I pray. Not any prayer. I pray…
Lord, give my children a generous amount of wisdom today. Let them ask you for this wisdom, and not look to the world for it. James 1:5
I pray today Lord that my kids will believe and not doubt, make their faith strong like a rock. Don’t let them be tossed back and forth by unbelief. James 1:6
Today I pray that my children will learn to stand in their trials, to not give in to what is easy, but to persevere for what is right. James 1:12
My words mean nothing. They have NO power, so I pray God’s word over them. I pray the entire book of James over them because that book is about living a radical life for Jesus.
I can’t do anything to control what my children will choose. But I can fight the spiritual battle in prayer for them. I can stand in the gap and pray the only words that have any real power over them.
This is what I know. God said it. He meant it. So If I pray it he hears it, he listens to me, and He says YES!
And if God is for me… who can be against me?
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Kari Day is a woman passionately pursuing Jesus in her everyday life…stumbling and falling along the way. She is the co-founder of Allied Women, a community of women helping women to pursue God’s purpose for them. Kari is driven by a passion to see women change the world for Christ by living fully in the purpose he has created them to live. She blogs about living life intentionally and abiding in Jesus at KariDay.com and Allied-Women.com She lives in the Pacific Northwest with her husband, three kids, golden retriever and new kitten she recently rescued from under the house. You can connect with Kari on Facebook.