So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:16
Am I the only one who has used my sin as an excuse to not come boldly to God’s gracious throne to receive his forgiveness and help?
I remember in high school being encouraged to read my Bible daily and have a quiet time with Jesus every morning before school. This sounded delicious as I was passionate about God and loved having “dates” with him in his word, worship and prayer. There was only one problem, I am not and never have been a morning person. And in order to get up before school to have this time I needed to be up by 5am. This, my friends, is early. For a few days, maybe even a week, I succeeded. But it didn’t take lond for me to fizzle out.
The result of this was huge amounts of guilt and feelings that I had dissapointed God and was therefore not welcome in his presence. I would stay away for weeks at a time. As an adult who has walked with Jesus through many different season and situations I now know that he lives within me ready and eager to commune with me at all hours of the day. His presence is sweet and continuous and leaning into him has become as routine as breathing.
I know that what kept me from coming to my Jesus after feeling like I had failed him was my unbelief in his forgiveness and his knowledge of my humaness. My unbelief in his grace and the way he is personal. My unbelief in the promise of his presence through his Holy Spirit.
I am determined to not ever allow unbelief in these ways keep me from the sweet presence of my Savior again. That accusatory voice telling me I am unworthy and not good enough is not my Jesus. His voice is forgiving. His voice speaks grace and truth. That where no, I am not worthy on my own, the very reason he died was so that I could come and live in his presence always.
What is keeping you today from coming boldly to his throne? Unforgiveness? Shame? Guilt? The accuser? Will you confess it and run down the aisle to His altar? Will you come boldly to the throne of grace and receive the help and forgiveness offered there? It is what he died to give.
Stephanie Page is a wife to one very supportive man and mom to three beautiful girls. With a background in foreign and local missions, youth and women’s ministry her heart is to see people living their lives on purpose for the glory of God. She spends her time as a speaker, writer, bible study leader and conference planner. She is the author of two books, “It Started with a Blog” & “Preparing for Christmas”. She is also co-founder of Allied Women. Her favorite things are hanging out and serving with husband Chris and snuggling with her girls. You can find her blogging at www.stephaniempage.com as well as on Facebook & Twitter.